Monday, September 14, 2009

New Plan

If you've been following my blog for some time, you know that I love to make up new plans on what projects I'm going to make and the priority that I have for them. And then, a few weeks or months later, I come back and act like I made no such plan. I go and start more projects that weren't on any list, scrap what I was planning and hide the evidence. Except of course, I had journaled here, so I can't hide ALL the evidence.

I admit it, I'm a flighty knitter.

However, I have made a new plan. Now, before you start laughing and making snide comments, this one is different - really!

Lately, I've just been tired of having a craft room that no longer has a clear path and I can't find what I need. I have too much yarn that I have no love for anymore. Plus, there are some patterns that I have been wanting to make for awhile and just have not been able to get to it because I am a flighty knitter.

Last weekend I pulled down 2 boxes and 1 large bags of yarn to get rid of. I'm currently in the process of listing it all as a destash on ravelry. I also identified patterns that I truly do want to make and am tired of putting off. I am keeping any yarns that I need for those patterns, of course.

What I have left on my shelves for yarn are the ones that I need, the truly yummy that I want to keep and some souvenier yarns. It feels good to have that sorted out!

And here are the patterns that I would like to or need to do next:

1. Pair of socks for my prayer swap partner (in process)
2. Blanket for niece for wedding (need pattern & yarn)
3. Pair of socks promised to husband (need pattern & yarn)
4. February Lady Sweater (will use the sublime)
5. African Adventure Bag (have the Kauni, this may be a fair project)
6. Milkweed Shawl (using the WM)
7. Baby Surprise Jacket to try the pattern (have the yarn & pattern)
8. Ogee Tunic (need yarn)
9. Rivendell sock (have yarn and pattern)

I really hope I can stick to this list because I think I need to. The good thing about this is that if an irresistable pattern comes along, I can fit it in between the others. The only things that are must knits are 1-3. And yeah, don't mention the fact that I said I don't knit for gifts anymore. I guess I'll eat my words.

Wish me luck!

Not So Simple

I was snuggling up to my husband the other night, just loving the companionable comfort of one another in a plantonic way. The phrase of "simple joys of life" went through my head. And then I thought, "simple? there's nothing simple about this joy!"

I started thinking of the joys that I have and have had and tried to find one that was "simple." I couldn't. As a result, I don't think that there is such a thing as a simple joy. The are all complicated!

Case in point, my above mentioned snuggle with my husband. Though the moment seemed simple, there was a lot that led up to that point. First, we had to meet, then date and fall in love. Then hash out ourselves in marriage. The peace and comfort I find in just being together, in being totally comfortable has been built on years of WORK. There is nothing simple about the joy that results because of it.

The same thing can be said about my relationship with God, it's not simple either. It's taken me many more years of learning about Him, myself, in trial and error. When I come to those moments of pure joy, they are not simple.

Joy is beginning to take on a new meaning to me as well.

At first I thought it was a feeling, first and foremost. That if you try hard enough to have joy (which as a good Christian you should have) then voila.

Then, I thought that joy was a response to what has been happening in life. It was a feeling that came upon me when everything lined up, like planets in a certain formation.

But now, I think that joy is more all of this but more complex. Joy is when you've worked on something; a part of your life, a relationship, a project. And then you learn to trust it, to love it and be content at where you are in it. Even if you're not doing good, have a lot more to do, you accept it all and yourself just as it is right then.

That's when Joy comes for me.

Joy is a fruit that blossoms after a season of growth and change.